Journal Entry: Fri Oct 17, 2014, 10:02 PM
On May 16th, 2014, I became homeless. 2 days ago I got the keys to my new apartment, and now that I'm no longer in crisis I feel the need to let the world know.
Some of you are probably wondering why I didn't say anything? Especially my family. But here's the thing, I've been homeless before (briefly) and the first time I learned very quickly that when people know about it, you lose them. It starts out slow, at first it's just pity. Then it's offers to help, and eventually it leads to an emotional breakdown because the other person can't handle their worry and your deteriorating emotional state. It also drastically effects your job and it brings a lot of shame to your family.
Plus in the end, what I need from the people I love is not a couch to sleep on, but their friendship. Particularly laughter, fun, and a place I can visit to feel safe. I needed the reprieve of someone who cared, but when the focus is on my 'unfortunate situation', it's not a very positive environment. Know that you helped simply by being there for me.
I did have a few select friends who knew (mostly because they were too close not to know) and they helped me greatly. I appreciate their patience and I know it was very hard to get through. It was rough for you, but I couldn't have done it without you. I wish I could thank you better.
I won't go into details right now, but I just want to say that the majority of my homeless experience was very positive. I was extremely well prepared with $4.5k in the bank before starting and all the regular supplies that I would need like a sleeping bag, cooler, a coleman stove, and a good car with locks that work (thank you Oma and Opa!). I learned a ton about my town, and realised that street smarts literally means knowing what is on each street and whether it's smart to be there or not. XD I had an action plan from the beginning for almost everything. One thing I wish I'd been more prepared for was getting out of homelessness. It's a lot more difficult than people think and it's a long story, so perhaps another day.
I've also adopted a minimalist lifestyle, which I'd always wanted to do before but never really had the discipline. As I go back into the world of regular bills I'll be changing a lot of my old habits for a better, cheaper (and healthier!) lifestyle. However, there are a few things I gave up that I want to get again: a bed (omg, this is such a luxury), a desk, a microwave, and a washing machine & dryer. Fortunately, a fridge comes with the apartment, w00t! So for the next month or so I'll be doing a fundraiser to help me get these items. My goal is $1,400 and I'll be opening digital painting commissions to get there. If you'd like to help feel free to send me a note for my paypal, or better yet, if you live within Salt Lake Valley and you have one of these items available let me know. Feel free to spread the word about the "Furnish Teshia's Apartment Fundraiser". It is very empty in here.
<3 And now that I have electricity again, awesome art is likely to ensue.
Hmm... that wall could use some painting on...